That one question you know?

First off I want to say that I know that I am a very prideful person. I know that i'm also very egotistical. But I have been working on that. For a long time. and I think i'm getting better at that. you be the judge.

but here we go:

I think that everyone has that "one" question they want to ask God.
and no its not: Can God make a rock so big that even he can't move it? (or my new personal favorite) Can God cook a hot pocket so hot that even he can't eat it?
hmm hot pockets. yum. back to the real question:

Mine isn't really a question but I want to see something. Not how thick the gold is on the streets or anything like that.
But I want to see what humility looks like. I want to see how God, with everyone/thing worshiping him, "handles it". I mean i was made to worship. so when i worship how does God react?
What does true/pure humility look like?

-btw so far most of the humility i've seen is driven more by pride. or how it seems to me. (i'm sorry but I don't know how to explain that thought with writing. ask me next time you see me.)

I don't know if that makes sense. But to me it does and I did not know what else to write.

friends

I just want to say that I have the coolest bunch of friends.
maybe more later about that but till then...


peace

:(

I think my ipod is dead.
i am sad.

hmmm...

I got nothing. I could tell you about my trip up to Seattle and how much fun i had. I could tell you that I love the snow. I could tell you that I like what the Mariners are doing. I could tell you that 19 feels no different the 18. I could tell you all about that stuff but I'm sure you already know it.

Just curious

but does anyone else wish that the could have their own personalised soundtrack to their life that you could turn off when you wanted to?
I do.

I have a feeling that the Muse's Knights of Cydonia, Mims This is why I'm hot, MC Hammer's You Cant Touch this, Fort Minors Remember Thy Name, Jay-Z's Dirt Off Your Shoulders, The Offspring's You Gonna Go Far Kid, Death Cab for Cuties I will Possess Your Heart, Chris Cornell's You know my Name, Cake's The Distance Black Sabbath's Iron Man, and last but not least Justin Timberlake Sexyback would be playing a lot.

I'm feeling to lazy to link to them all so go at it yourself: youtube. when your listening think of me and how it would work. (some of these are insiders jokes, too bad for those of you who aren't on *whisper* the inside)
and if you have any more ideas comment away.
but again this is a sound track to my life... I think these are all fitting in one way or another.
peace

365 or 19 take your pick.

365 days ago I was in Hawaii. Feels really weird. Life went fast. Some much happen.
In no order whatso ever.

1. Went to Honduras and had an amazing time with the guys. plus something else happened too...
2. I have a girlfriend.
3. I did the unthinkable (or so I thought at the time) and quit rotc, and while i don't regret that I do regret not talking to Sargent Major.
4. Got into Central.
5. Decided not to go to Central.
6. Broke my nose and now I can't really breath out of the right nostril. which is really cool but also really annoying at the same time.
7. Went on a AMAZING road trip and got PAID for it.
8. Paid more for a dinner then i ever thought i would.
9. Grew up just a little bit more.
10. Knowing that I'm still a kid at heart as evidence as spending an half hour last night sliding around town.
11. Spent the most money I ever had before on a laptop.
12. Voted.
13. Had my faith tested in ways I never knew about my dedication to Mariners baseball.
14. Knowing that I have an awesome family and amazing group of friends.
15. Really started become "me". (not defined by others)
16. Trying to know everything. (gotta love those random facts/just saying sayings)
17. watching/feeling my pride/ego get destroyed and knowing I'll be a better man because of it.
18. I feel like adult.
19. It feels REALLY REALLY weird that in one year I'll be 20. a couple years ago twenty was OLD. Gasp! am i getting old? please no.

Bam!
There you go. 19 facts and other crap. I hope your all happy now that I'm back posting.

I could not..

I could not tell you why i do not blog anymore.