hmmm...

Last night I couldn't sleep.
At all. (well I got an half an hour 6:00am-6:30am) So what I did i do?
well I watched season 7 of scrubs.
played some football.
listened to some music.
thunked.
but at some point between 2:30-4:00, I can't remember when. I made some hot coco and went and sat outside.
I do that a lot, sometimes just watch the stars.

and while I don't know if I was out there for 10 minutes or 2 hours, it hit me.

What I wanted and should do with my life.

It made sense, and when I realized it, it was one of the most peaceful feelings in my life.

I stood up, feeling/wanting to tell someone but everyone was asleep. :(

And this morning, I still felt that peace.

but,

I couldn't/can't remember what I choose/decided/found out.

And it really really sucks.

and I don't know what to do (again)

The name is bond, James Bond

I am tempted to talk about how I love James Bond movies or I could talk about how I always wanted to be James Bond growing up. Instead I'll save my time and yours (because do you really want to read that?) and just leave this awesome pictures of one of the all time coolest heros ever!

some baseball talk

I'm hoping for this: (and also for the rays to win)


To me theres nothing quite like a baseball fight, the batter charges the mound, then benches empty THEN the bullpen comes (its always funny to see the fat pitcher chugging towards the fight like an nfl lineman only to show up late and miss the fight). its like three rounds of MMA with a lot more players. (Not gonna lie, most baseball players SUCK at fighting [richie sexson anyone?] but it can be fun to watch)
But heres why I want to see a fight between the Rays and Red Soxs.
The 'Soxs are the big boys on the block and know it, but the Rays wont let them push them around.

This post season has been awesome. Dodgers won, Philly won (probably my fav NL team)
and the rays give hope to me because if they can win then maybe, someday, the mariners have a chance.

While I hope Rays win, it doesn't matter who plays in the World Series its bound to a great one and (crossing my fingers) probably going 7 games.

though I always wonder why the catcher takes off his mask, with that on he can not be beaten. cept maybe with a bat but that earns you jail time.

The Bailout

I really don't want this bailout bill to pass.
Nothing like getting paid to do the wrong thing.
But mostly I don't want my kids STILL having to pay for something that their grandparents generation caused.